Javen Says:

Recently i learnt alot from life experiences.. It was a rollercoaster ride for me at least. I have never been so messed up in life till recently...

I always thought i was a tree firmly rooted in the ground... but recently i let my guards down, put my egos aside and went prideless to pursue what i believed to be a dream that i see is worth my life pursuing... but i was so wrong.. as a result, i'm slipping into a depression...

So my question is what is hope?

Hope as i define: Is waiting for something that will never materialise... i am so disappointed in life and so disappointed in anything at the moment... i have crumbled like an ant home being trampled on by someone only to have ur pride and ego taken away.. wad can be worse than all these combination....

Should i be angry or sad or self pity myself for being so dumb? I have lost all trust and hope with anyone.. Empty promises and false hopes.. enough is enough...

I dun think i will be the same person anymore, I am frustrated with all the uncertainties in life that brings to u onli but disappointment w oneself time and again..

I was faced with a question that is
To try again and again in wad i believe in doing or
To just give up and focus on other things...

At this point in time.. wad will u do? I tried countless times exhausting all options, onli to be disappointed, things that i have never thought i would have done and so i did... but where was the hope???????????? ZERO!!!

Well done... Javen. checkmate!